So i am left with approximately 9 days before the start of poly life. I don't know how i feel about this. All i want is for things to begin smoothly. It's the start of a new chapter for me and i really wouldn't want it to be like the last one.
WHOOP IT'S THE LAST DAY OF 2012!
I won't go in to too much detail so here's just a brief summary of my life for the year:
(It is in order to some extent but i just can't be bothered to find the exact date of these events.)
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Chinese New Year wasn't any different, eat, talk, collect ang bao (red packets).
Made a couple of youtube covers with Gerald,
Got my O level results,
Failed math and science (sighpie),
Applied for ITE, got accepted but I rejected the offer,
Wanted to head to Lasalle but couldn't due to financial difficulties,
Decided to retake O's,
Started Night GE O levels classes,
Met some awesome classmates: Octina, Shaz, Nad, Mef, Eileen, Jingwen, Iggy, Xavier, Liana,
(Siti i've known you since sec 1 so you don't count as new. LOLJK LOVE YOU!)
Joined ITE's musical Hairspray ,
Went for my first musical theatre workshop in Lasalle,
Learnt my first broadway dance choreo,
Joined Project.Dream.Stage (a singing competition), won 3rd place,
Started Self learning the guitar,
Bought my first guitar, Liam ( yes my guitar's name is LIAM, don't judge.)
Did 2 youtube covers with Nicky!
Met MICHELLE PHAN with serene, SUNGHA JUNGalone, DAVID CHOI!
Went for Peicai's Ignite Concert as an AUDIENCE for the first time. Really proud of my drama juniors!
Quit the musical because of reasons
Joined Kovan superstar, got into the finals. Bryan, Hubert, Jiajun, Meiling, Pheobe, Juliana, Afiq, Fengyao, Jingren, Kelly, Yokie you guys are amazingly talented :') Love how we're all still in touch even after the competition!
MUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGED FOR O LEVELS LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS.
Got pretty lifeless from august to november. Life literally revolved around Ten Year Series books, Tuition and Starbucks.
Did all my final exam papers for the FINAL TIME. I SWEAR I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH O LEVELS THIS TIME.
Joined Lasalle's 3Sixty Performing Arts Camp. Had the BEST campmates one could over have (too many to mention hahah)! I miss every single one of you and i hope to see you guys again real soon!
Did a few gigs here and there, resumed playing the guitar again,
Performed for Peicai Secondary's Prom Night.
Joined Teen Supreme (another singing competition), got third place. caught up with old schoolmates, Justin, Tissany and made some new friends, Layshuen, Huichuen.
And now here i am.
Things i've learnt from/in 2012:
1. Never doubt yourself. Want to try something new? Just do it. Even if you fail, it still beats that feeling of constantly wondering what the outcome would've been if you tried.
2. I learnt how to play the guitar! *achievement unlocked* . Months of sitting in my room everyday to practice is showing it's results. I'm still far from being what can be considered as a 'guitarist' but hey, taking baby steps here. Plus I'm finally plucking up the courage to perform in front of people and not just my stuffed animals.
3. I discovered how amazing STARBUCKS is. I'll miss my 5hour mugging sessions at United Square's Starbucks with my caramel frapuccino. Good times, good times.
4. I can dance! Well, almost. I just need tons of practice.
5. SUPPORT LOCAL TALENT! Yes there are amazing local musicians out there, you've just gotta find em' at the right places eg: youtube.
6. I HATE BEES.
7. Eat and exercise regularly. Starving yourself isn't going to help in weight loss whatsoever. Plus it's added stress.
8. You have got to accept the fact that not everyone is meant to stay in your life forever.
9. ED SHEERAN IS AMAZINGGGGG.
10. It doesn't matter if you fail, what matters is that you never stop trying.
11. Those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter.
Here's my resolutions/goals for the year:
Get into a poly course of my choice.
Write songs.
MUST. LOSE. WEIGHT.
Learn music theory.
Do well in POLY.
Try out vlogging? hmmmm..
Learn how to dance.
Learn American sign language.
Draw closer to God.
I am glad that I managed to survive 2012. I started out the year with a really pessimistic mindset, thinking i was probably one of the most useless 18-year old in the world. While all my friends went on to their next phase of education, i was stuck with O's, all because I couldn't pass Math and Science. Eventually, I saw it as a blessing in disguise. 2012 was almost like a gap-year for me. I had time to explore more about the things I love like music and the arts for example. Of course, i studied my butt off, making sure that i wouldn't repeat the same mistakes as last year. Safe to say i think i might actually pass with good grades this time!
I have had my ups and downs this year but it's the people around me that kept me going. No words can describe how thankful i am for God, myfamily and friends. Thank you so so much for being there when i needed you. Yes i can be pretty childish and short tempered at times but no matter what ya'll loved me for who i am and stood by me. (honestly i have no idea how you guys do it lol. Even I hate me!).I am truly blessed. I couldn't have asked for anything more.
Okay gotta end my blog post here, my family's going to have a little steamboat later on so i gottaprepare myself toEAT ALL THE FOOOOOOOD! (update: done with both lunch and dinner. One word to describe the food: YUMMMMZ.)
I'm not going into too much details about my life lately, mainly because im just lazy hah.
Things i've done in the past month or so:
1. TEEN SUPREME COMPETITION, THIRD PLACE!
2. GIG @ PEICAI SEC'S PROM NIGHT 2012.
3. LASALLE 3SIXTY CAMP (PERFORMING ARTS!)
PHOTOS FROM LASALLE 3SIXTY CAMP!
Performed in the black box (creative cube?) for our showcase. The theme was travel, hence the car/truck/bicycle tyres lying around. And yes, that red-haired Chick is me, looking professional and all with the guitar when in fact, i didn't even dared to play for the showcase. My baby Liam was passed on to the guys. sighpie my guitar skills are hopeless.
We go to the top of the SIA Theatre (this isn't the top by the way, see the shadows of bars on the top of the photo? Yes, that one.) It wasn't too scary at first, till you come to that sudden point of realization that you're 20m above the ground with no safety belt whatsoever. But it was all good experience.
DEBBY! Loved this girl. She's from Indonesia but studied in Australia earlier on. We got along pretty well but sadly she had to head back to Indonesia before even performing for the showcase.
Some of the awesomest girls around. ;)
MIA, Y U SO CUTE?!
This was our lunch point every day.
The visual art campers did an exhibition as well. I think it had something to do with Alice in Wonderland. Too bad i didn't have time to look around.
" FUNKY CHARLIES' ANGELS!"
" To go, or not to go, that is the question."
I haven't completely lost the thought of perhaps studying there. I'll let my results decide my fate.
I'm glad to have made such amazing friends. They are all really talented individuals, be it in dance, acting or music. I'm really hoping we'd see each other again. Those living abroad, PLEASE DO VISIT SINGAPORE SOON!
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So i have been thinking ..
I will stop making (or at least attempt ) to make any youtube videos for the next few months or so. I'll be honest, I am beginning to hate my voice. I hate just how pitchy i tend to get, the quality of my voice is rather amateurish and I just feel pretty talentless for now. I've also kinda lost that passion, the reason behind why i even sing or act in the first place. It's time i've begin searching for answers instead of forcing myself back into it by joining competitions or gigs.
Why did I even liked performing?
Why bother to join competitions?
Is Lasalle even worth going to?
What if i was never meant to go into the performing arts in the first place?
I have temporarily lost inspiration or passion to pursue anything performing arts-related. But till then, i will still work on myself. My voice, guitar skills, everything. I see no point in crying and not doing anything about it anyway.
This whole life sorting thing i have been facing is eating me alive. I just want to stop feeling useless. I want to prove my self-worth.
Okay, this is really going to be my last post till i go on my hiatus. Really need to mug for O's, im not even kidding anymore. I still believe in getting like 10 points & below. Again, not kidding.
Hahahahaha okay maybe a little. /:
MICHELLE PHAN PRIVATE TEA SESSION! (somewhere last saturday)*fangirling moment*
Serene & I headed to Ion Orchard to meetup with the amazing MICHELLE PHAN! Initially we wanted to catch her showcase but just look at the crowd at Sephora! It was MADNESS. We ended up going to Soup Spoon first since we had an hour to spare.
(Note: photos were taken with handphone cameras, hence the poor quality /: )
Serene could barely see her even though she was in heels, i was lucky to catch a glimpse of her walking in hahah. LUCKILY, Serene won a private tea session (there were 4 other winners) & they were allowed to bring 1 friend along. And yes, SHE BROUGHT ME!
This is madness okay i can't even. We went the Salt Grill & Sky Bar in Ion where the session was held. I thought they were joking when they told us to head up to the 55th floor. The lift only took passengers from the 4th to 55th & vice versa. COOL OR WHAT.
(Okay i sound like some country bumpkin never see lift before hahahah but okay moving on)
SERENE! <3 <3 I just can't thank you enough girl :') LOVE YOU!
Did I mention that the view looks amazing as well?
And now for the lady herself
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MICHELLE PHAN!
Okay, in case ya'll didn't know she's youtube's number 1 makeup guru (yes i watch makeup tutorials hahaha don't judge) . Her videos are very clear & straight-forward, unlike other artists who spends like 5minutes just talking about how their dog/cat was. Her makeup looks are stunning as well, plus with her instructions, they are easy to recreate! Here's one example.
Amazing yes? Go check her other videos out!
She is such a sweetheart, giving everyone equal attention & answering our questions as well as she can. Initially everyone was kinda shy, loved how she tried breaking the ice by asking us questions like
" If you're stuck on an island & you can only bring one makeup item with you, what would it be?'"
to
"OKAY SO LETS TALK ABOUT BOYS :3 "
Of course, no M&G would be complete without a photo!!
A random shot of 2 of the many desserts we got to eat OMNOMNOMNOMNOM.
LOVED THE MAROONS!
She was one of the ladies in-charge of the event.
#OOTD
White tank top from Cotton On ($10), Black Cardigan ($3), Belt ($3.90), Jeans ($18), Bracelet ($7.50), Bag ($10), Ankle boots ($21)
I think i've officially become the next budget barbie hahahah.
Okay, MOVING ONNNN.
FINALS OF KSS 2012
(today)
Yep, can't believe it has finally arrived. I could still remember the auditions, photoshoot & recordings like it was just yesterday. Crazy just how quickly time flies.
Sadly i didn't win, but it's all good. BRYAN, JULIANA & JINGREN did an amazing job, they deserved it, & so did everyone who made it this far! I've made amazing friends, can't imagine the whole KSS experience without any of em'. Oh yes, not forgetting the XYZ crew & Intune school! Without them, none of this could happen!
& now my voice can officially 'die'. Had a terrible sore throat for the past few days & today wasn't any better. Good thing i managed to pull through! I might be getting a fever as well lol. psssssh, excuses /:
Don't ever stop singing guys, keep chasing your dreams! We have so much potential, so much to give to the local music scene. With tons of practice & dedication, im sure we'll do so much better in our future performances/competitions to come! See ya'll real soon (:
I have quite alot on my mind but i can't seem to put them in words. I don't quite know how to express my thoughts here, clearly i need to read more books (which im starting to do so) .
Classes this week are alright, POA's starting to get tougher now. Now's not the right time to question if taking that subject was a wrong decision. All i'll have to do now is work hard towards an A1. We're moving out of algebra for math next week (THANK GOODNESS) so this should be interesting. Also I've started revising Geography & social studies, i'll have to start practicing SEQs soon.
I have been constantly questioning what i want to do with my life this year. I consider myself strangely lucky to have the chance to retake O's, it just gives me more time to think. Do i want to pursue the artistic career I've always dreamt of? Or be realistic & try to get one of those boring office jobs with a stable income.
BOO I AM SUCH A WORRIER. I NEED TO CHILL.
What is meant to be yours, will be yours.
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Here's a cover Gerald & I did quite some time back, still loving the simplicity of our cover!
I guess we'll not be making covers for now, he's busy with poly, im busy preparing for O's. I honestly have yet to thank him for doing so much, learning the song, preparing the equipment, editing the video/audio, promoting the videos while i just ... sing. so Gerald if you see this, THANK YOU! (:
Till then i will just do short covers with Kelly whenever possible. Also i will try to improve my guitar playing skills. PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!
& now i shall end this post with a photo of my braid. It's inspired by the hairstyle Katniss had before she entered into the games! I am really proud of my work here so yeah, here it is :>
I should prolly get some sleep now, apparently im not working tomorrow so i have an entire day to myself. I still don't know what i should do with it haha (though obviously i should be studying but heh, no thanks. /: )
Okay, done here.
So okay, these awesome youtube stars you see on the poster right there ^ are going to be part of the youtube stars concert here in SINGAPORE on 7th of MAY. All the information is in the video done by Tiffany Alvord right heeere v :
& so with all this comes the YOUTUBE SINGSATION COMPETITION which yes, i've entered for! *nervous* The first prize will be a chance to be the opening act for this awesome concert so if i could get to do so it would be a DREAM COME TRUE! I've always wanted to perform on the very same stage as these amazing youtubers so really, this means alot to me!
Sooo, IM GONNA NEED YOUR VOTES FOR THIS ONE GUYS! here's what you can do:
Oh hai. I see it's now a habit of mine to blog at hours which i should be asleep but what the heck, leggo.
Life has been going on as per normal so i don't have much to talk about for now.
I found a job, one that's really flexible. Good thing it doesn't require me to work every single week. it's more like an own time own target job plus, the pay is pretty good considering what i'll have to do for it. i just need the extra cash to buy things for myself, shoes, wallet. most of the things i have are spoiled, if not on the verge of falling apart state. sigh, first world pains.
Also, i have finished my very first cover with NICKY! We met up at somerset on Wednesday. Had EwF for lunch before heading to *scape to do our cover. fortunately the weather was great, it didn't rain like the previous days. Practiced & jammed a little before doing the actual song.
(Please ignore my derpy faces. I really have to learn to "interact" with the camera & not look like my mind's a million miles away :S )
She's by far one of the awesomest people I've ever met. Had an awesome time with her!
It's funny how we never actually get to talk to each other in person till that day despite being in the same camp for 3days plus that mass dinner with the Apaches. Hopefully we'll get to do another cover real soon :)
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I need to realize that O LEVELS is approximately 7 MONTHS AWAY.
Kim, it's time to focus. Enough of fun & music. We'll have plenty of time to do all that later.
In time i'll have to stop thinking about making covers, going out with friends, doing things that isn't gonna help me get into poly & him . i've made this mistake once, i don't think i want to go through the same thing again.
K, i really got to sleep. Study marathon later. i wasted the whole of yesterday & im not too happy about it.
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I couldn't stop thinking about him for the last couple of days.
Seriously this has to stop. Clearly he doesn't care even if im dead or alive.
Not a single 'hello' or 'how have you been?' was asked.
Great, you live your life & i'll live mine. it's was nice knowing you. have fun in school okay?
I don't get why i get this upset even though we aren't even together. Boo i am so pathetic.
yep, as much as i guessed, strangers again.
(i can't believe we even watched that WFP short together. i could still remember thinking about how it would be like if all that happened. apparently we skipped several phases hahahahha.)
Kimmo, 19.
The visual art campers did an exhibition as well. I think it had something to do with Alice in Wonderland. Too bad i didn't have time to look around.
I'm glad to have made such amazing friends. They are all really talented individuals, be it in dance, acting or music. I'm really hoping we'd see each other again. Those living abroad, PLEASE DO VISIT SINGAPORE SOON!
