Funny how some things that once mattered to you so much eventually becomes something you no longer care about. Indeed, time heals all wounds. The things that I used to worry all day about now seem so trivial. Of course, there are more things to worry about now. I feel as though I am slowly moving towards adulthood (can i not).

Things at home have been rather unstable. At times I feel so helpless I don't even know how to sort things out. It pains me having to see mum working so hard just to support the family. I too have found a job & hopefully that could help lighten her load. Dad ... I don't even know what to say.

With God's guidance, I believe that things will fall into place, eventually.

Now on to something abit more exciting. I received my blue belt on monday! Yes, I passed my first ever Aikido grading exam. During the grading day, my fellow aikidokas and i headed to paya lebar-kovan CC really early in the morning. My first thoughts were:

"Shit I still cannot roll properly."

"Omg, those aren't tatami mats. Wouldn't rolling/falling be alot more painful?"

"I'm hungry."

When the grading began, we were arranged by numbers. I guess what made the grading less stressful was that I had friends all around me. Aikido isn't a competitive sport, so I didn't have to worry about how i would do compared to the people around me. We did our usual warm-ups follow by the thing i dreaded the most:

rolls.

With all my #YOLO might, I rolled across the mats. I think about half my rolls were sucessful but I can never be too sure lol. During the technique segment, i was paired up with a lady who practices in MP CC. It was the most tiring 30mins of my life but i enjoyed every minute of it. The next day my body was so sore I wasn't even able to attend aikido class, that was why i only received my belt this week.

I am proud of myself for trying something completely out of my comfort zone. Most of my CCA days were spent in the performing arts (e.g, drama club, angklung). When i first entered into RP, Replug was the first thing i applied for. I guess you could say being rejected was a blessing in disguise. Thanks to tons of persuasions from my friends, i tried out for aikido, only to end up enjoying it.

It still feels weird that i spend more time in the sports complex than i do in studios/stages but hey, poly is a good time to explore new interests so why not?

Ok i should be sleeping now. Jamming session with the band later on. I can't wait to sing my heart out !

x

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