I thought I'd just blog now, while the thoughts are still fresh on my mind.

Music, something that has been a huge part of my life. Can't live without it, there hasn't been a day in my life without music being played.

I love singing (obviously). I've always loved performing on stage & yes, i have dreamt (& still am) of making my own music album. I do not seek fame because if it was what i really wanted, there are a great number of ways to do so *cough* Kardashians *cough* . LOLJK.

Of course, my music 'journey' has it's ups & downs. Firstly, I have been been really jealous of girls who have both the looks & talent. I can't help but think that i'll never be as recognized as them because i don't have the beauty & hardly any talent. Sigh, the music industry these days is just ...

Secondly, I feel as though my singing will never be good enough. I have vocals of an 8 year old for goodness sake, there have been times where i hated my voice so badly that i just wished i never loved music. Also I know nothing about music theory & instruments so that would be a disadvantage for me.

 BLAH BLAH BLAH, ME & MY COMPLAINTS. sheeesh >:/

I've got to constantly remind myself that:

1) Music has NOTHING to do with looks. Good music IS good music. If all the listener is searching for is looks, the fashion industry is a good place for em'. Plus, i think i look pretty alright no? It's the inside that counts.

2) Want to be good at a certain thing? WORK AT IT. Just sitting there whining about your pains isn't going to magically improve your skills.

I've decided to take up music lessons at the end of this year. i MIGHT want to learn the violin. In the meantime (while im still preparing for O's) I will continue self-learning the guitar & perhaps get started on abit of music theory. I know im not as good now but i am willing to work my ass off for the sake of music & music alone.

I believe i can do this, i can make good music.
Till then, practise practise practise!




I was listening to this & it made me happy. Why? Not because of the song (or the fact that sungha's pretty cute teeeheee) But they are sharing music & having a good time together. No competition, no jealousy, just pure happiness & music. That should be what it's all about.

I have been too distracted with gorgeous 'singers' who get all the fame just because they are pretty but can't sing for nuts without the help of auto-tune that i forgot the true beauty of music in itself.

Time to remind myself why i even want to do music in the first place. Just being around art makes me happy & again, i just can't imagine life without it.

(by the way, i paint too, but I've faced problems quite similar to the one now so uhm, yeah.)

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I have yet to blog about past events & such but ughhhh, lazy.
Plus it's almost 5AM. Heading out to *scape with my sister later so I NEED SLEEP.

K, im done. Yes some of my thoughts aren't well elaborated, they usually aren't anyway, at least not in words. Someday, i will let the music do the talking.

GOODNIGHT/MORNING!

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