I've just read Xiaxue's blog post about Adele.

Honestly, i don't know how im meant to feel right now.

I mean, what if all she wants is to belong? While she does want to make big girls feel comfortable about themselves, deep inside she is also insecure about the way she looks? Yes, she talked about not wanting to be on covers like vogue & playboy, but what if deep inside she really does want to but is afraid?

Yes she insults other singers, like Katy perry & lady gaga who uses their "bodies" to sell their music. what if all she wanted was to feel a little better about herself? she was probably jealous about the way they look deep inside. yes, it was wrong of her to insult others but hey, isn't that what everyone does? putting others down just to give their egos a little boost?

This may not necessarily be the way she thinks but then again, what if it was so? 


Im starting to feel like the second adele (except for the part where i've not achieved 5 grammy awards ... yet. )

Since i was a little kid, i've always been bullied about my size. i know some meant well, but other were just plain mean. i wasn't even really chubby back then. eventually i believed them & came to a point where i never cared about the way i looked, constantly having bubble tea & french fries every other day until teenage life came knocking on my door.

I've always wanted to feel comfortable with the way i am but come on, just look at the media today. skinny = pretty . Yes i know that i will have to slim down eventually, after all it's for my own good.

I guess many of us want to please the majority of the crowd but often forget that there are others that love them just the way they are. Maybe Adele hasn't come to that realization yet.

okay honestly i know my thoughts on this blog post is rather scattered but all i really needed was to blurt out all my feelings. you can choose not to read this blog post you know.

so is Adele still an inspiration to me? yes. I think despite her size she is still unafraid of performing, knowing that she'll probably be insulted by some for the way she is. which is why I've started making YouTube covers as well.

i do agree when she said: " i make music for the ears, not the eyes. "

she's prolly still insecure at times, which is normal. like me, hence those remarks. so hey, lets not judge . why assume that she's a certain way just because she said & did certain things? EXACTLY.


okay, i've said my piece, well most of it. i might add on certain things later /:




All those horrible memories just came flashing back to me. no wonder i felt so panicky.
i guess im alright now.


Now, i don't necessarily disagree with what xiaxue said, i prolly just didn't like the way she put it.


Okay, im done here. heh, what a blog post!


on a sidenote, i am currently looking for a job now. #joblessgirl94 /:

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