Funny how some things that once mattered to you so much eventually becomes something you no longer care about. Indeed, time heals all wounds. The things that I used to worry all day about now seem so trivial. Of course, there are more things to worry about now. I feel as though I am slowly moving towards adulthood (can i not).

Things at home have been rather unstable. At times I feel so helpless I don't even know how to sort things out. It pains me having to see mum working so hard just to support the family. I too have found a job & hopefully that could help lighten her load. Dad ... I don't even know what to say.

With God's guidance, I believe that things will fall into place, eventually.

Now on to something abit more exciting. I received my blue belt on monday! Yes, I passed my first ever Aikido grading exam. During the grading day, my fellow aikidokas and i headed to paya lebar-kovan CC really early in the morning. My first thoughts were:

"Shit I still cannot roll properly."

"Omg, those aren't tatami mats. Wouldn't rolling/falling be alot more painful?"

"I'm hungry."

When the grading began, we were arranged by numbers. I guess what made the grading less stressful was that I had friends all around me. Aikido isn't a competitive sport, so I didn't have to worry about how i would do compared to the people around me. We did our usual warm-ups follow by the thing i dreaded the most:

rolls.

With all my #YOLO might, I rolled across the mats. I think about half my rolls were sucessful but I can never be too sure lol. During the technique segment, i was paired up with a lady who practices in MP CC. It was the most tiring 30mins of my life but i enjoyed every minute of it. The next day my body was so sore I wasn't even able to attend aikido class, that was why i only received my belt this week.

I am proud of myself for trying something completely out of my comfort zone. Most of my CCA days were spent in the performing arts (e.g, drama club, angklung). When i first entered into RP, Replug was the first thing i applied for. I guess you could say being rejected was a blessing in disguise. Thanks to tons of persuasions from my friends, i tried out for aikido, only to end up enjoying it.

It still feels weird that i spend more time in the sports complex than i do in studios/stages but hey, poly is a good time to explore new interests so why not?

Ok i should be sleeping now. Jamming session with the band later on. I can't wait to sing my heart out !

x

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Damn, it has been long.


Apart from my daily classes, I also joined AIKIDO as my IG (interest group). Talk about stepping out my comfort zone eh? After weeks of persuasion from my friends I finally gave in. It turned out to be quite a blessing. I went for the three day camp, had my first aikido lesson (i looked like a rotting potato) and before I knew it, I bought my gi. I'm still not entirely sure how long I'll be in Aikido but let's just see where the wind takes me, after all it's all about harmonizing with the spirit yes?

Life outside of school has been ... different. Many things have happened/changed. Of course, these are things i wouldn't be talking about here but all I can say is that i am still surviving. I am still that same confused Kimmo i was years back and honestly I hope this confusion would come to an end.

Currently i am having my six week holiday (yay) before semester two begins. Now I am shifting my focus on three things: Aikido, work, music.

My aikido grading for blue belt is only a week away and i am awfully nervous. To add on, i still don't know how to tie my belt (oops). I'll have to be on 'vacuum mode' for the next three lessons if i don't want to end up failing my test.

As for music, I am currently in a band called "The Unwritten". More details about us will be posted soon but in the mean time, we are still working on finding our music direction. As for me, I will try to compose songs as well as explore different genres. Being in a band is completely new to me since i've always gone solo. I was pretty blank during our first jam together but thankfully they were understanding.

Overall, despite the number of bad things that have happened, i am still going strong.

I am excited to see what the future holds for me.

Now, let me end off with pictures from the past few months.







I will try to blog more regularly from now on. Seriously micro-blogging is ruining my life. *blames twitter*
Okay i am done here for now. I shall leave you with a cover my sister and i did a couple of days back.

Um, hi.

Labels: life, poly